It was a year ago today that we had your funeral. Its scary how fast the time has passed by, it only feels like yesterday. This time last year was the hardest day of my life so far. I remember it so clear. The hearse pulled up out side the house and it felt so surreal, like it wasn't happening. All I could do was stand there and look at your coffin. Uncle Gordon came and put his arm around me. The whole journey to the crematorium I cried looking at the hearse in front of us. I didnt take my eyes off you once. There is one thing that I regret not doing at your funeral and it hurts so much knowing that I can never change it. At the end of the service, the reverend spoke to us and said that if we wanted to go over to you and say our goodbyes we could. Dad and Ken went straight out side, I wanted to go over to you and kiss you goodnight just like you always used to do with me, but I didn't, and I regret that so much. Although its been a year, the pain and hurt is still as strong as it ever was. I love you so much Nan xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx